Things are getting hairy with my finances. I can't seem to make things work out right now.
By next week, I think things will be a bit worse, though I cannot be too certain.
It will be alright, since I know I can handle a lot of it since I am still trying to find a job, and I know it won't last much longer.
I also have some plans to write. I have a few ideas in my head that I want to get out before too long so it will be alright. I can't wait to begin. I am going to start writing using the old fashioned way so I can get everything I need in my head down so I don't forget them. Besides, with my computer being so slow and old, it would be a great idea to do this that way until I can do something better.
I just need to remember that I am going to make it through everything I can and do what needs to be done.
This week, the weather has been very warm and beautiful, even when it rained.
I love the Spring, it always makes me feel good about myself and about life. Everything is new again and refreshed. Flowers are blooming and color is everywhere this time of year.
I am reading a lot this week too. I am trying to get myself caught up in everything so I am ready for fall when all the releases I want to read come out.
I have also cut back on my role playing and am feeling a bit easier about myself and am able to get more done this week. I haven't finished up my apartment cleaning, but have been able to do the other things I have put on my To-Do list and set some great things in motion. I am happy with the growing results.
Some day I hope to accomplish more than I have in the last two years and get things done!
I haven't given up on knitting, but I am in need of help, and I am going to look for someone to help me learn how to do it soon.
I asked my little brother how much longer he thought we would have our grandmother...I think he doesn't want to think about the possibility of loosing her, but the point I was making was that we HAVE to think about it because it will happen and we must be prepared to let her go when the time is right. I don't like it any more than they do, but that is what we must be prepared for.
Life changes, I wish it was different, but we can't avoid the inevitable but we can enjoy as much time as we can with them while we have them.
My only hope is that she doesn't forget us as she gets older-her grandchildren. I think that would be the worst thing in my heart, but at least we have our memories of her and with her.
She is still relatively healthy, so thinking about it should only come once or twice a year is a good idea for now. For now, I am going to do everything in my power to make sure I am alright so she won't worry about me when she leaves us in the future.
So my long term goal is to make sure that I can take care of myself by myself without her worry.
I also found out my father's actual age the other week and am forced to recognize that he is getting older than I thought he was...he is healthy and happy and active so I am not worrying about him in that capacity, but it is forcing me to realize that my parents are the most precious gift I could have...it still bugs me that Dad is the age he is, but it is alright, I love him.
I can't believe this week is almost over and I feel like I have been too lazy to get anything done except small things. It is time for Spring Cleaning and I can't even bring myself to clean...I think that is the problem with many people these days. I will get it done this month so I am going to be alright.
I am also searching for ideas for my Jane Austen blog or to figure out what to do with it in the coming weeks. I think it is time to use it for the other purpose for which it is intended-writing and learning...
There is more on that, but I will share it as soon as I can finalize some thoughts there.
With spring comes new beginnings and with new beginnings, I think I will have some good ones if I stay the course..
Have a great Thursday!